THE POET DECIDES TO GO IT ALONE

If I were stood on the Atlantic cliffs

it is your voice I would want to hear.

If I were parched under the desert sun

it is your lips I would want to kiss.

But now that I have only one night left to sleep

I will spend it alone.

If I were lost in the city streets

it is your touch I would want to reach.

If I were far out and all at sea

it is your net I would hope would catch me.

But now that I have only one night left to sleep

I will spend it all alone.

THE HALF DOOR

Grey stones, grey walls, grey sky

over a grey sea,

sheets of rain pass from the Atlantic

and it’s five miles to town.

The fridge door doesn’t close and the milk won’t keep

so I learn to drink my tea black.

I stoke the range for encouragement

and dream of French breads hot and soft

I’d butter and eat as quick as you could bake them

among these grey stones, grey walls, grey sky

over a grey sea,

sheets of rain pass over the Atlantic

and it’s five miles to town.

Maybe we should have just painted all those walls –

harebell blue, centaury pink, lady’s bedstraw yellow;

wildflower colours of spring in November

instead of this intolerable grey;

grey stones, grey walls, grey sky

over a grey sea,

sheets of rain pass over the Atlantic

and it’s five miles to town.

Whatever did we talk about in those days?

the quiet, the loneliness

the chance of Aurora Borealis

- or ghost conversations

and the recognisable plough from the half-door.

Poems by Keith Payne